Brian said, “What dinner? What are you talking about?”
I had to remind him about the dinner because he had completely forgotten. He is still not convinced there even was a dinner! While reading I was disappointed that I had forgotten so many things. Like the rainbow dream I had…how could I have forgotten that? And the butterfly that chased Josh around all afternoon on Mother’s Day! Oh my gosh…I had forgot that too!
After a few tears, and many smiles I
learned why these pages are here. They are here for me, my family and our friends
to remember how very special Kaitlynn was. This journal is for remembering the joy she
brought to my life and how the joy greatly over powered the heartache. She was special, her life was special, even the
way she left this world was special. It was nice to be reminded of that. Family Update! Brian and I are doing great. We really missed everyone at the D.C.
conference. I hope much fun was had by all and I look forward to hearing the details on the forum.
I have heard that Miss Edie Burke is sick and was unable to attend the conference. Please pray for sweet little Edie (she has MPS
1) It is time for me to schedule my
yearly MRI to check on the pituitary tumor. Please pray that it has not grown.
(Last year it was 7mm and surgery will be required if it reaches 10). Josh and Holly are doing great too!
Josh is still working at the same company as his Dad and they both continue to hop all around the
United States. Brian is in Chicago this week and Josh is in Ohio. Holly is being promoted to Assistant Manager at
the Kroger store where she works. This will mean more responsibility and hours but I think she will do great! I’m still at the doctor’s office. We are currently planning on a huge move from
our current office to a brand new building. The building has the potential to facilitate 10
doctors. And I thought it was busy with six…oh boy! I’m trying to plan my vacations for
the year. Brian and I will probably spend one week at home so we can work outside.
The second week I’m going to split in half. Hopefully part of it will go to visiting Miss
Allison in North Dakota . The other half will hopefully be used to attend the Slawson walk-run in California
I have to make my mind up soon and get my requests turned in. It’s hard to believe it’s March already! That’s it from the Wellman home!
Please remember that each of you are in our continued prayers.
Much love,
Jessica _________________________________________________________________ Dear Kaity, What a blessing it was to read this journal and be reminded of forgotten
moments that we shared. Daddy told me the other day that you’ve been on
his mind more in the last six months than all the time since you’ve been
gone. He’s really had a hard time the last few months. He said he cried a few weeks ago because he got
to thinking about the time you broke your arm. It breaks his heart to remember that accident.
I assured him you were fine now and that’s all that matters. We love you baby girl and there’s not a day
that passes that you do not cross our mind. Although our pain has gotten easier to bear we
think of you so often. I put in for a personal day at work on April 3rd.
It’s hard to believe you will be 16 years old in heaven! I’ll be spending most of the day with doctor’s
appointments, which is better than working I suppose. Hopefully the appointments will go quickly so I
can send a few balloons up your way. Mommy
April 3, 2007
Happy 16th Birthday Sweet Kaity!
I spent much of the night trying to decide what to write in my journal. Words were failing me so I browsed the internet trying to find the perfect poem for your birthday. I was so aggravated when I couldn’t find what I was looking for. I’ve been so down the last week. Birthdays are supposed to be special, yet I feel nothing special today. I just wish I could see you and tell you Happy Birthday in person. Saying “Happy Birthday” in my journal just doesn’t seem enough anymore. Why do I have to wish my daughter a Happy Birthday in heaven? No one should have to do that. I should be teaching you how to drive. I should be fussing at you for staying on the phone with your boyfriend and not doing your homework. I guess those things were just not meant for your life. My brother said it is hard to believe you are 16 because he’s always pictured you as a baby. I feel much the same way. He said since you are perfect now that maybe Jesus is teaching you how to drive. I’m sure he is right. Aunt Rhonda is coming over today. She and I took the day off from work to have dinner and to send you some balloons. Daddy will be there too.
Be watching the sky sweet angel.
Mommy
May 2007
Brian and I had a wonderful vacation in May! We started from home with no
reservations, no meetings, no phones, and no watches. It was such a peaceful
and enjoyable vacation. We were on a garden, antique, and flea market quest!
We visited
I
simply fell in love with
We've
been to Gatlinburg a few times, but mostly just passing through. This time
we not only shopped but toured the mountains. On the way home we stopped at
several antique stores and found treasures for the garden, including a neat
wall decoration, and an old window which Brian refinished and painted black.
He made a wood post over one of our benches and we filled the empty panes
with fake crystal ornaments. It is a really neat area.
I hope everyone is having a beautiful summer!
Love,
Jessica
It’s that time of year again…
Three years ago was when I called Hospice for Kaity. This time of year is so emotional for me. Mother’s Day at church I broke down. I cried most of the day. Thank God Donna was there. The sermon was about Jesus healing the blind man and the last song played was icing on the cake…Amazing Grace. (One of Kaity's funeral songs).
I left church only to go to two different locations. Each place I went was playing funeral songs. I’ve gone almost three years with barely hearing one of Kaity’s funeral songs, to having to hear THREE of them on MOTHER’S DAY! Donna said it was Kaity coming to visit me but it was all very emotional.
Now it is June and the memories flood back in the summer. Everyone knows it’s my favorite season, but it holds so many memories that some days you just want to hide! For my birthday Kaity sent me four beautiful moonflowers from heaven. I took it as a sign that she sent one for each decade of my life.
June through August is bittersweet for me. On one hand it saddens my heart to remember, on the other, I would just die if I didn’t have the rainbows, the butterflies, the moonflowers, the birds, and all the flowers in my garden…
Thinking of you sweet Kaity Bug,
I love you...
Mommy
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Thank you for being a part of our lives.